What would u do... if u were me?

i'm about to turn 30 on saturday. i know it doesn't sound like a big deal... but i've got mental health issues... and i've always wanted to and thought i would ... die before i was 30 by suicide. i think that life is mapped out and this is my fate. i have an awesome gf and son (chihuahua). my counsellor and psych think i should be in hospital up until my b'day. i feel indecisive. is that okay?? i need some thoughts on this.